ChickenSituations

On new year’s day my mother went out early to visit a sick relative. She left me a whole chicken for barbecueing. I was thrilled by the idea of being given the rare chance to take charge of the kitchen (...my mom is a control freak in the kitchen). But when I faced the chicken I seemed to be clueless. The chicken can’t be barbecued whole. It should be cut into parts. And I havent cut a whole chicken into parts in my whole life. So I took courage to get the butcher knife and do the task. I was afraid at first because i did not know if i was doing it right. I inhaled deep as I swang back my armed hand and hit the joint of the thigh part. After the first cut i was able to breathe normally. It wasnt that tough I realized. And my babies turned out quite fine. I marinated them with a barbecue mix and tossed them into the grill pan. Im quite good for a first-timer.

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Tonight, I faced another chicken situation. Now mother was out to attend a wake (it’s a different person, the sick relative isn’t dead... yet). No cutting was involved this time. But I was supposed to “broil” the whole chicken, using a pot! We got no turbo broiler, that is why. But my mom is such a genius she can “broil’ using what equipment we have available. The technique is actually to wrap the marinated whole chicken in a foil and then steam the chicken 30 mins per side. Then unwrap the chicken and allow its juice to reduce and caramelize. When skin is brown, it is ready to serve. I called mama 3 times to get all these intsructions. The result is a juicy flavorful chicken. I could say it is even better than the real char- broiled chicken, whose meat has the tendency to be dry and gummy. Im just magnif for a 2nd-timer!

im waiting for you

i open your profile from time to time, to know what you've been up to: where you go, who youre with, what you do. and whether or not that status single is still there.

i may not show it, but inside im hurt. whats holding you back? am i just like any other girl? everybody says we could be good together. and i believe them. i believe in us.

But im not gonna rush you and myself. im gonna wait. because what we have is special.
Take time to resolve your issues. take time to heal. Enjoy yourself, your family and friends. Grieve for your lost loves. seize your moments of solitude.

don't worry about me. im just here waiting for you.

Twas a fine 09 after all

In a few hours this year is saying good bye and new year is ushering in. I still can't believe 2009 happened so fast. there were many tears, sleepless nights, moments of anger, of love, of loneliness-- all of them are flashing in my mind like a montage of photos and music videos. But i guess the most important thing that happened is that i learned more about myself. i learned discipline. I learned health. I learned how to really love and how to really let go. It is all a continuous learning. It is probably a long never ending struggle. but Im fighting because I'm stronger. Im facing this year with new hopes. new dreams. new perspective. thank you 2009 for making it difficult, but wonderful after all. welcome 2010. =)

anticipation

i am anticipating we will be together some day
it thrills me to think about the wonderful things we will do
i am fascinated by the persons we will become

we will be best friends and lovers
we will have kids, we will have fun
we will swim, we will run
we will sing and dance
we will always be in love

I am anticipating problems will come our way,
we will argue and then reconcile
we will learn to adjust to one another's desires


it thrills me to think about the memories we will make forever
i am saving my passion and love for this future

New things

It's probably too early rewind the year and reminisce. but i just think many new things happened this year that are worth recognizing. things i did not expect. some good, some bad, but all in all made me a better person.
1. my new boss
so he's the director...probably the most alienated person in the office, because he's the boss. but he's not bad actually. and with the few months i worked with him, i learned a lot. and i realized more than ever my worth and my potentials. I guess with my new boss came a new found self-respect and confidence that he brought out in me.
2. my new place. In my mind, I call my landlord Mr Wilson (yes from dennis the menace), you already know why. it's a little bit expensive but i like it becaus ethe community is peaceful, it is clean, close to the laundry shop and grocery. It is more spacious than my old room. it has a small veranda where i can dry out my clothes and feed stray cats. and the best thing about it is that it was flood safe during Ondoy, i almost could not believe it. Thank God! Sometimes i get lonely but at least i learn to be strong and independent.
3. my new boys. I dated quite a few times this year. Most were fun. Many brought about realizations and conclusions about men. When I was very young i thought i was that nerdy and ugly no one noticed me in school. I realized that beauty came with maturity. But there’s one guy who hasn’t asked me out, ever. I pray we finally get the chance.
4. my new lifestyle. Well this one is not quite new. I have always preferred an active lifestyle. I try to walk , run and dance when i get the chance. But now, im working out quite regularly, at least 3 times a week. thanks to my new membership to the gym with my good buddy, aries.
5. my new footwear. I try to buy durable foot wear that lasts for years. And last year I did not buy any new shoes because they all seemed to be in good condition. But this year, almost all of them got really worn out and resigned. My rubbershoes, my leathershoes, my sandals. It was time i bought some new pairs for my new journeys. I got the basics again of course. Sturdy rubber shoes for my work out , cute doll shoes for office work and casual wear, and lovely thong sandals for gimik nights.
6. my new me. I cried many times this year, because of different reasons, of different people. But i have become stronger, wiser and more beautiful. It is still the same old me but with a new outlook, with a stronger faith, and more vibrant personality.


Sometimes it takes a few new unexpected things to happen in one's life to be able to have a new perspective, a new feeling, a new hope.

God heard my prayer at once

God heard my prayer at once
He did not let me feel pain
He allowed me to forget
He allowed me to let go
For after all everything else fades away
But His generous heart

Amazing that I can smile
Wondrous that I can laugh
Inexplicable that I have moved on
Despite the overwhelming failure
In spite of the unfathomable hurt

God heard my prayer at once
He knew my hear t’s desire
He lead me to peacefulness
He bathed me with happiness

I am restored, I am renewed
because God heard my prayer at once.

crazy about koreans

there are two korean videos im crazy about these days.
Cant help but sing and dance with them! too bad i cant upload the videos... just see them on youtube:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QZBn1e9pr2Q

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7b697RZAhTQ