Insomnia

I am someone who has great appetite for sleep. At night, no matter how early it is, 7 or 8 even 6pm, I can close my eyes and dream away just by laying on my bed with my pillow. Insomnia is truly strange to me. I can’t understand why some people find it hard to sleep, when it is such a pleasurable thing to do. But lately I think I’ve been experiencing that thing they call Insomnia. After work, I’d find myself hooked on the computer til past midnight. If I didn’t a have a watch and was unaware of the time, I’d probably still be up til dawn. I’d feel tired but i just couldn’t sleep. And I’d feel so empty, so hollow inside and tears would fall til my eyes get heavy and finally put me to sleep. That has been my routine since last week.

And now it’s not just my heart that aches, but also my head. I don’t how long this is gonna be. I surround myself with people and get busy with activities so that at the end of the day I ‘d be too tired to even feel anything. But I guess it doesn’t work that well. No matter how tired I could be, the loneliness still creeps in on me when I lie down at night, looking at the ceiling and praying.