natural tendency

I don’t know why some people have the tendency to be involved with complicated relationships—married man/woman, single parent, too young, too old, gay or lesbian- the list goes on. Is that tendency a natural thing?

You found me, just a little late

Flashback: Ondoy

As the night creeps in, I become increasingly restless. I am home but it seems my mind and heart are somewhere else. My imagination jumps about like a fidgety grasshopper. I think of the unfinished plans and reports for my boss, i think about working out in the gym, i think about my sleeping blog, I think about my Facebook Cafe, i think about my so-called ex-boyfriend, i think about my brother in Malaysia, i think about who I am going to vote in the coming elections, i think about my Christmas list, i think about my credit card, i think about the traffic in EDSA... There is just so much to think about. And if you think about it, there is so much clutter, so much noise, so much irrelevance that exist in my mind, that I fail to think about what really matters. Typhoon Ondoy and Pepeng brought so much devastation but I did not even lift a finger t help in any way. When people ask me how I was during the typhoon, i always said, “thank God the floods didn’t reach our place”. I was safe and warm in my home, while I watch people suffer and the homes

I had been broken a lot of times. Perhaps I still am
Broken.
Only trying to put on a straight face
Because I don’t want loneliness to take over myself.
Because I know deserve more than
Sulking in my room crying
I so deserve more than
Surprise-less birthdays and nonchalant Christmases
I deserve more than being ignored
I think I deserve to be loved somehow.
I think I am worth some sacrifice and effort.


But I had managed to accept that persons like that are
Rare.
I had learned that man is born selfish.
That there are few people lucky enough to find that person
Willing to stick out for’em

And now you’re here.
A beautiful apparition from somewhere
or nowhere.
You’re making me smile
Tickling my butterflies inside
But I am not sure if you’re that person
I want to believe you are
What do you really want from me?

Is it
Love?
Please say that it is.
At least say you’d like to try

Because I’ve had enough
Misfortune.
I am quite
Tired.
Someone please take care of
Me.
Someone please be
You.

Automated, Underestimated

I must admit that I underestimated the automated elections. My brother said touchscreen voting would have worked better because the touchscreen equipment was much faster, convenient and user-friendly. And it was not as costly as the PCOS.

We lined up for more than 2 hours under the heat of the sun to make our precious votes. There was a lot of drama in the precincts. The crowd was incessantly complaining about the inconvenience. The so-called authorities—BEIs, Comelec reps and PPCRV seemed disorganized and helpless.

But all the difficulties in the morning was replaced with excitement in the evening when hour by hour, the nation was presented with fast election results. It was far better than the more than a month-long counting. After 1 day some municipalities had already proclaimed winners. Presidentiables already conceded to the leading candidate, Noynoy.

Of course the elctions still have a lot to improve, but for first time I think Comelec did well. And I also salute the Filipinos who held on in the long lines and scorching temperature to fulfill this fundamental responsibility.

One time